PLease God, Nature, anything, I just want to be free of this disorder, I want to be part of something, I want to be fun, I want to be able to dance, I want to have friends, a family, I want to be accepted, I want to really understand what's happening to people I love, I don't wanna hurt them, I don't wanna be mechanic, I wanna tell them what exactly I'm feeling, I wanna show them what I'm feeling, I don't wanna let them down, I can't be excluded anymore, I'm tired of being the freak, rejected, avoided, and hurt the few lights that really matter to me, and I'm getting old, and I still am suffering the same, but I can't take autism anymore.