Even in my darkest
Bitter
Sad moments,
I can try with my mind
But my whole body
My whole spirit
Can't stand an inch away from her
And my soul
It just cries loudly inside my head
I dont know what to do
I am desperate
I cant comprehend
I cry
I berate
I implore
I do anything
I see all the beauty
All the truth
All the details
Coincidences
Stories
Smiles
Laughters
Parks
Dreams
Squares
Colors
Trees
Flowers
Buildings
Poems
Words
Photos
Why would God do this?
Why would God give so much
To just take everything away?
To be stolen of all joy in a life?
All of this feels unnatural
Synthetic, unnecessary and modern distance
And I yell in tears to the world
I want God to be alive
In all these times
Confused
Hurt
Angry
Not one single cell of my body givse up
The few frackles of Light
The oxygen for the mind
They all come from her
Imagining my love
In dream of us
And her eyes
Her spirit
Her touch
Her smile
It's what makes me be brave
It's what gives me my hope
It's what makes me fight myself
It's what gives me hope for a tomorrow
Because I believe in magic
I believe in us.