What makes someone start a product?
What makes someone write thousands of lines of code?
I don't complicate: it's just an obsession that must be realized.
For me, like many, it was to find a place. To relate.
The music sang by the crowds isn't heard by my ears. I never had the instruments to play their games.
Writing in a friend's timeline; ironic posting; flirtatious photo comments; useless political conformity- these are disgusting signifiers I never learned to speak.
I had to do something. Solve this problem.
I wanted them to speak my language. I wanted the Infinite to rule over.
I wanted to wake up and see words that escaped from chaos, were translated by the soul and are now colored with truth, purity, beauty.
With each line of code, I was creating an endless kaleidoscopic barrel.
Infinite authentic drinks; everytime, countless individual possibilities to discover and experience the world.
Sadly, with technology, it's always a matter of time.
The barrel becomes hedged, normalized, complying to the mediocre urges and instincts of a vulgar crowd of hungry cows.
It's not the fault of the creators; it's the essence of modernity.
Zuckerberg isn't a devil.
Heidegger wasn't just a grumpy old man.
Still, this is not a nihilistic post, there is one way out.
It's been there from the start, but ambition and talent may blind you against it.
Hate, greediness, envy, fear - these can't be the staves of an ever-thriving barrel.
I don't need a line of code to drink from the most genuine, intense and manifold barrel I've seen.
It's an universe within itself and I will never fully grasp its numberless peculiarities and possibilities.
I lay my eyes on it and there's always a small detail that changes, and intensifies, the greater story.
It changes, becomes stronger and, with authentic and loving staves, it'll perpetually astonish my mind.
To start with love, be authentic, is a humbling experience.
Yet, is the only way to experience the Infinite, to be Infinite yourself.