My deepest desire

I will try to leave all masks behind

At least for those facets presented here and

Behind the curtains of my shyness

There lives a savage bull

And If I'm to be perceived as perverse

May I at least be clear on my ways.

Behind my rationality,

There always lived burning desires,

Often misregarded by most

Or else very misunderstood.

Behind all my actions,

Behind all my ideas,

Behind all my fantasies,

What do I desire the most?

Everyone will have an answer

For me it's rather simple.

I desire what is mine,

Mine and mine only,

No one can touch,

No one can get close,

Mine and mine only.

In all the cues

All physical gifts

All small and tiny details

My mind and body burns

For that which yells as fully mine

My signature

My land

My garden

My home.

Nothing else

Awakens my bull

Nothing else

Really gets my desire

If anything gets close to what's mine

Even if remotely in my mind

My desire is not the same

If I am offered something many had

I simply find no sparkle

A sense of repel and disgust strikes me

To expose myself to that

Which holds the remainers of others

Would you kiss a sidewalk?

Would you touch a toilet with your sensitive parts?

I wouldn't either

But I'm smart enough

To see the similiarity,

With any drugs given

I would never be able to consumate

Because I have no desire

My bull is retracted

It simply doesn't find the whistle

To feed that disguting land

If anything

If I ever felt my land had been invaded by someone else

I'd start trying to validate my beauty

Mistakengly, I once used those trash humans for validation

"Am I beautiful enough?"

To understand if I had value,

It was a stupid and useless mistake

But deep inside I am uncapable

Often when I'm single I wish I wasn't

But deep in my heart

I can only see these people

As cum dumpsters

And I honestly feel a vomitating sensation

Whenever one gets close to me

Genocidal thoughts come through my head.

Regardless, deep in my heart

If I were to fantasize

With that which I desire the most

The only thing, in the end, I desire

I'd find pleasure in that which is often disregarded

But for me it finds all my certainty

The soul that I belong to

All of myself

All of my body,

And in such

The body that belongs to me

Each tiny detail

The skin that is mine with my scent

The hand that is made perfectly for my body

The mouth that is mine, clean, reserved,all for me

The legs that I gently kiss

And as such feel the smell of the water

Coming through the gates

All my water

All made for me

For my tongue, for my mouth, for my body,

It is clean, pure, made for me

Dripping through my garden

Scratching and carving my soul

The smoothness and warmthness of the skin

That only I have it

That is my home

Locked for myself

The gentleness

The texture made for me,

My flowers and tress

All mine, for myself

I slider and enter myself in the home which I own

I give her that which is hers and only hers

Beautifully combined

So much desire I find

So much strength I gave

The fire burns my skin

I want to grab, hold, get her close to me

I want to unite our souls into one

Feel the beating of our hearts

Burn her with the heat of my skin

Bites, slaps, very strong squeezes

Hugging

Grabbing

I tame my savage lioness

I spread her wings to bring my gift

I prepare her with all that is needed

For the ultimate climax

Make my lioness fly,

So high

So high

So high

I have no limit

I go as far as I have to

She is mine

And it is my duty to give her what she desires

I never stop

I use all my strength

All my fire

And our time

Comes

I leave a part of myself in her

She has part of me

I have part of her

My mind can't stop racing

The desire is overwhelming

The ultimate act of ownership

Our bodies are flooded

The smell, the texture, the warmth,

The final sound...

She would always apologize

Unaware of the pleasure I feel

Everything is perfect

My bull absorbs it all

It is his

All his

They belong to each other

My essence, her essence

Our smell

Our river

All perfectly melted together

I can only feel proud, joyful, completed

There is nothing but contempt

Peace

I feel gravitated towards

No matter what might come from this

Any water, any liquid, anything

In any dirt we might do, I never feel any repel

Quite the opposite, I feel connected, gravitating, glued to her

Because she is part of me

My body and soul accepts everything that comes out of her.

And it's not a perversion I acquired

I was like that since the first time I touched her body

Never was I naive,

Never did I lack a strong sexuality

Indeed,

I think I was born with it,

Deep in my heart and soul,

It is part of my DNA,

I never had to learn,

Never did I change,

Never did I become unpure,

I always just feel it all

It flows from my soul to my body

My bull when secure of his land

It aggressively and instinctively comes out

No technique, practice or experience required

It all is the movement of the soul

The strong

The bold

The builder

The fertilizer

In my biggest desire

Instinctively

Existentially

Sexually

My biggest desire is to feel home

To grab, squeeze and hold

That land which is mine

And no one else gets to touch.

 

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