The silence
The stillness
The desperate running
To find nothing
No word
No sign
Took my breath away
I had to stop by the bench of my own sanity
And understand what's really around me
I could see clearly
And I saw who I am
I saw what I did
I saw what I'm doing
I saw what I became
I saw what I have done
I saw what I do
In my intertwining and riddling contradictions
I saw myself
I saw what I've always been
And there it was
Intact
And it wasn't just for a hit of luck
I kept it there
All these years
Alive
My own little fountain of light and gold
And I'm no longer upset
Of what anyone thinks
In their confusions or biases
I know who I am
I never manipulated
I never lied through my teeth
I never cheated on her
I never betrayed anyone
I never had wrong intentions
I never kissed an empty mouth
I never slept with a dead and frail soul
And that's not something I need to beg to explain
It couldn't be mocked by the best actor
The Truth is blatant, stamped and preserved in my heart
And if someone doesn't want to see it
It is their loss
If no one wants to see it
It is the world's loss,
I don't regret my actions
I never did wrong
I had the right intentions
It's not up to me to convince anyone
It's up to them to open their eyes.
I know who I am
I know what I want
I know what I came here to do
My purity and light
My young childlike heart
My humility, excitement and smile in creating a future
Is what makes me who I am
Is what makes me unique
Is what makes me genuinely alive.