Panic attack

The evening was nice

European summer day

And there was no precise reason

I was just eating

People were talking

They were smiling

The usual plastics

But out of nowhere

I could barely breathe

I was sitting down

Still

Quiet

I tried and

There was not a move

I was cold

But it seemed like an earthquake was coming by

I'd send pulses

From my brain

To the limbs

And there such an immense delay

I could almost wait

As an out-of-date computer

For the nervers

To send out the information

And when I did 

I didn't have the strength to move a leg

Everything that touched me

Was like a needle

The chair

The fork

The clothes

They were pulling off my skin

My heart

I would feel it

Each beating

Breaking the glass of my soul

An announcing song of death

But I knew what was happening

I knew what was beginning

And I didn't give that a chance

I didn't care about what people would think

I ran

In pain

In confusion

And I didn't stop

Until I found loneliness

Until I found silence

And in empty white room

I laid down

Looking up

I breathed

I breathed

I pictured

I remembered

I read the words

I trusted her words

I knew I could do it

I prayed

I prayed

I prayed

And suddenly

There was nothing in my head

But one thing

It was my sunshine

Her angelical voice

Inside my head

Whispered in my ear:

"When all the songs are out of tune,

And all the rhymes ring so untrue;

When I don't find the words to say -

The thoughts I long to bring to you;

You will be my music.

You will be my song."

And there was our love

Healing love

From thousand of miles away

Fixing my machine mind.

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